After a relaxing and productive trip up to the Bay Area, I feel like a different person now.
For those of you who didn't know, I spent about a month in the Bay Area house-sitting for one of my brothers by myself. I had company over time to time or I would go into San Francisco to visit my other brother. But other than, I was pretty much alone to my own devices.
Now I'm not saying being alone is a bad thing, I was able to cook for myself, wake up at reasonable hours, and catch up on a lot of things (mainly tv, video games, and friends). I also had the opportunity of having little - to- no stress with job hunting. And as I sat there trying to customize my resume about 10 different ways, it left me thinking about a lot of things. Specifically, who am I now that I have graduated college and where I am going?
That was the main problem, I didn't know either yet. I left college with two sides of an emotional coin. One side as a bright-eyed, optimistic college graduate ready to take on the world relishing in the recent freedom from classes. And the other side being a recent college graduate with no sense of direction and the fear of having to become completely independent in every aspect of my life.
Can you guess which side has me the most scared?
I left the Bay Area after having several heart-to-hearts with the closest people in my life and a new outlook on self-independence and family (I'll probably talk about this in later Real Talks)
The thing about being happy is that it's not just about you. I think it's also about your impact on making other people feel happy for you as well. Happiness shouldn't belong to one person, it should be shared all around. It'll be a hard journey with slow, small steps to reach a point where I can be content with who I am.
But, it'll be a worthwhile journey to heal my sanity, mind, and heart.
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