September Favorites

Hello everyone!

It is now the first day of October and in my eyes, officially Fall/Autumn! This also sadly means the end to September. So here are the list of my favorites throughout September!

Food + Tea - De La Terre: Purifies Blemish Skin Tea

After having the most amazing facials of my LIFE during my visit to San Francisco, my facialist wanted me to keep up my skin care when I can. So I bought this tea from the beauty line she used during one of my facials called the De La Terre Skincare line. She recommended this tea specifically to help target eliminating my blemishes and reduce the redness on my face. Made with chamomile, dandelion, nettles, chickweed, and licorice - the tea is quite herbally with a slight bitter taste. Growing up with herbal flower teas, this is quite the lovely tea throughout the day. With benefits including reducing inflammation and bacteria activity, minimizing pore size, and providing Vitamin A, B, C this tea is PACKED with power.

Make-Up + Beauty

So, I forgot my makeup bag that holds my sunscreen, BB cream, and primer at my brother's house so I haven't been able to do my makeup properly. But I have new found love with my lip glosses that I always have on hand in my purse to add a touch of color.

Top: Regular Lips | Middle: Tony Moly Gloss | Bottom: Dallas Gloss

Tony Moly Petit Bunny Gloss Bar - #4 Juicy Cherry

SUPER CUTE container once again by the Tony Moly series! I picked this up from an Urban Outfitters and is an adorable companion in my purse for a touch of color.  With a slightly red tint, I feel slightly 50's pin-up  with slight red lips. Now this is a gloss and isn't meant to stay on forever (especially after my designated coffee time). I DO wish it was a little stronger in color, but it does add the touch of color I love. A little on the pricey side ($8) when you buy in person, so very recommended to try and find it online.

Benefit Dallas Ultra Gloss

You can NEVER be too old for squeeze-tube lip gloss. A pretty dusty rose color to add a subtle hint of elegance and color when I wear my casual California clothes. A gift from my brother's girlfriend The color is extremely subtle on my lips since they are a similar color. But it is nice to know you have a touch of color on your lips when you're out. It smells lovely and is quite lightweight on my lips and feels like chapstick rather than lip gloss.

TV / Movies - Drunk History

My brothers introduced me to this show knowing that all three of us have a love of learning, American history, and funny drinking stories. This show encompasses everything that we could have ever asked for. Shown on Comedy Central and on Hulu Plus, each episode takes place in a different iconic American City/Area or piece of American Culture. Then different narrators re-tell American stories that aren't that known and based on actual events, but just told through a drunk person's perspective. Then the production team takes that narration and has it re-enacted with actors to help show the story in a more dynamic way. This is by far one of my favorite shows that I watched over and over again. I just introduced this to one of my best girlfriends, who also happens to be a Film & Media Major, loved the idea of educating an audience in a fun and unique way!

Video Games - Pokemon X

So after a LONG day of studying and job hunting, nothing is more relaxing than kicking back with the 3DS and going on an epic journey. I've actually had the game on my 3DS since it came out last Fall Season, but I bought it so I could be cool to say I had it. The first playthrough, I didn't really get too far and wasn't as attached to it as I was with my older pokemon games. So I decided to restart completely, and BEST DECISION EVER. I feel more emotionally attached to my pokemon and paying attention more to the story and the environment. I can't wait til I have my team together to play against my friends!

Here is my current team with only 4 hours playing. (Not my real avatar, but I love the look of her!)

That's all I have for my September favorites I hope you guys enjoyed them or you're a little curious about some of the things I talked about. Please let me know what are some of your September favorites in anything - Food, new places to visit, books, movies, music, and etc!

Tuesday Tips #2 - Job HUNTERS Mode

Happy Tuesday everyone!!!

It is now the end of September and it marks a time of new beginnings into the Fall season! It's been a few months since I've graduated and the job hunting is still a very rewarding and diligent process that I have grown used to every day now. Today's tips are about what has been keeping me on task and feeling productive with finding work, since it is a very tough process for everyone.

Prepare to set yourself into Job HUNTERS mode.

H - Hone Your Skills

You need to know what you are and what you're going to bring to a company, because chances are there are dozens of other applicants competing with you for that same job. What makes YOU so different? Is it a special skill, personality trait, or your personal work ethics? Can it be improved on during the time you're job hunting? That's a big question because if you list a skill on your resume / cover letter, it is FAIR game for an employer to ask you about it or even test on it. So unless you can back up your skill, don't put it on your resume unless you are willing to put the work in to make sure that skill is good. A chef is only as good as his best knife.

U - Understand Your Experiences

Your experiences is what builds your resume and your cover letter. But it's one thing to just list it with what you did. But it's a completely DIFFERENT thing all together if you understand what you learned and got out of that one retail job, or that tiring volunteer experience, or that highlighted leadership position. I sat there for HOURS trying to think of what I can talk about or explain about this one job I had (I taught kids lego robotics) but I wasn't too sure what skills I got out of it. One way to approach understanding yourself, is to talk through each job, extracurricular, and volunteer activity you've done with someone you trust professionally to help you see your own life through a different window. It's still the same experience, just worded and looked at differently.

N - Narrow your Goals

This sounds SLIGHTLY counter-intuitive since you want to shoot out as many resumes and job applications as you can to hopefully get ONE response back. But there are only SO many hours of the day and only so much attention and energy you can get your mind can muster. Narrow your goals to daily standards of how many jobs you would like to apply to each day, along with which target industry you want to apply that day? If you're like me with a diversity of experiences, there are SO MANY jobs and positions out there that I can apply to that I would enjoy working / would like to try working for that span across a very broad spectrum. It would be slightly tiring to make so many different resumes with different skills and experiences as opposed to tailoring one specific resume to similar jobs. Example: I use a main engineering resume, to apply to engineering-like jobs or where my engineering skills would be MOST useful and productive during a session of job-hunting. Keep less, realistic goals for you to reach each day so you can keep a consistent process of applying to jobs.

T - Track your activity and progress

It is VERY easy to lose track of which companies you applied to, which resumes you used, or even how long ago did you apply. Thank god for modern technology and Google Drive. To avoid clutter on my laptop, I started storing all of the resumes, cover letters, transcripts, and writing samples on my Google drive in folders designated for different positions and types. I also kept a spreadsheet listing all the companies that I had applied to along with the dates I applied, whether it required additional documents like cover letters or writing samples, who is the point of contact if there was one listed, where the company is located, and etc. This helped me keep track of my progress and organize what resumes and cover letters would be best suited for future applications. Also, keep note of WHERE you apply in terms of which websites - your school career website, Monster, LinkedIn, the company's website, or craigslist.

E - Educate yourself about the company and the position

At this point, you'll probably have an incoming interview and you're not sure on what to do. Well, learn everything you can about the company and the position. Go BEYOND the job listing that you found that gives you a short description about the company. GOOGLE IS YOUR FRIEND. What is the company known for? What products or services do they offer? Is it a large Fortune 500 company or is it a Start-Up ? What other positions does the company offer if you can't get the one you're applying to? Does it have conferences/conventions or get involved with other organizations? WHAT EXACTLY IS THE POSITION YOU ARE DOING? If the company website doesn't offer, there are other resources that help explain - LinkedIn, Glassdoor, Salary.com, and etc. The more you know, the more you can prepare for that interview.

R - Rehearse 

Now that you know everything that you can ever learn, what do you do with it? You put it to the test by rehearsing everything that you know for that interview. Don't rehearse by yourself! Rehearse with someone you trust that can give you the most objective and constructive feedback possible in a practice interview. Pick someone that has been through the job-hunting process and has successfully obtained a job that is within your potential line of work. Rehearse your answers, but also rehearse how you carry yourself in an interview setting, how you speak, and your gestures. You'd be surprised at how much you can learn once you practice!

S - Smile, You got this.

Job hunting can always be a stressful time, and I found that being in a happier mood helps me feel more productive with the process. This is a stepping stone into a new part of your life! Enjoy it because it is scary and daunting, and that's the exciting part about it! Put on your favorite soundtrack to keep your spirits high!


I hope these tips help you as much as they helped me! Again, Happy Tuesday!

Real Talk #1: Start Towards a Better Me

After a relaxing and productive trip up to the Bay Area, I feel like a different person now.

For those of you who didn't know, I spent about a month in the Bay Area house-sitting for one of my brothers by myself. I had company over time to time or I would go into San Francisco to visit my other brother. But other than, I was pretty much alone to my own devices.

Now I'm not saying being alone is a bad thing, I was able to cook for myself, wake up at reasonable hours, and catch up on a lot of things (mainly tv, video games, and friends). I also had the opportunity of having little - to- no stress with job hunting. And as I sat there trying to customize my resume about 10 different ways, it left me thinking about a lot of things. Specifically, who am I now that I have graduated college and where I am going?

That was the main problem, I didn't know either yet. I left college with two sides of an emotional coin. One side as a bright-eyed, optimistic college graduate ready to take on the world relishing in the recent freedom from classes. And the other side being a recent college graduate with no sense of direction and the fear of having to become completely independent in every aspect of my life.

Can you guess which side has me the most scared?

I left the Bay Area after having several heart-to-hearts with the closest people in my life and a new outlook on self-independence and family (I'll probably talk about this in later Real Talks)

The thing about being happy is that it's not just about you. I think it's also about your impact on making other people feel happy for you as well. Happiness shouldn't belong to one person, it should be shared all around.  It'll be a hard journey with slow, small steps to reach a point where I can be content with who I am.

But, it'll be a worthwhile journey to heal my sanity, mind, and heart.

Pump #1 to the Book-Lover Heart (Book Review #1): "Adulting: How to Become a Grown-Up in 468 Easy(ish) Steps"

Hello Everyone!

Happy summer! It is the time where many of us catch up on the books we've been meaning to read and discover familiar and new treasures to the book-lover heart. 

My reading life transition! (Please pardon the poor drawing, but I like visuals!)

A little bit about my book-lover heart, it used to beat strongly when I was a child and I was a regular at my local library. High school rolled around, it became more of a necessity rather than for pleasure. I used to casually read to procrastinate on homework or studying. Then college life happened, and I quickly discovered that pursuing an engineering degree didn't leave a lot of room for pleasure reading in my life. I would have rather have slept or played video games. Or I was just stuck in a computer lab for hours on end reading research papers (bleh).

Now that I have graduated, I realized that I no longer need to look at research papers or lecture notes.I CAN READ. And I've collected quite a few books in 5 years of college that have just been sitting on my bookshelves for appearances...

I am planning on starting a main series of Reviews of all things I love including video games, beauty products, food, books technology, fashion, tv shows, movies, and etc.

Here's the start to my book review series - Pumping a Book-Lover Heart. I want that passion to be pulsing through me again as I rediscover my love for books. I hope all of you can join me with discovering this amazing treasures of knowledge and creative travel.

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Pump #1 - "Adulting: How to Become a Grown-Up in 468 Easy(ish) Steps"

I was walking through Urban Outfitters when I found this gem. What caught me was the title, "Adulting." I am no stranger to transfiguring the English dictionary to match colorful dialogue between friends. I flipped it open to a random chapter and I had to laugh at the simple statements of each step the author had to offer and the anecdotes that followed. I had to laugh over the sketch-up portraits of the infamous "frien-enemy" categories.

The book acts as more of a guideline for all things adult that you could ever think of wanting to know - relationships, jobs, basic maintenance, self-esteem, housekeeping, and etc. Some chapters applied more to me (job-hunting, family), whereas others were just friendly reminders. I believe this book can serve as a written moral compass to help you question if you are on your way of being an "adult."

Now the definition of being an adult can vary from person to person, but this book speaks to me as a whole of what I see myself as an adult. Happily successful with my career, healthy relationships with friends and family, maintaining a healthy lifestyle of food and beauty, and managing money. There are a LOT of tips in here, but it's written in a very straightforward and quirky, but with slight sarcasm that makes you feel like you're taking meaningful advice from a friend rather than ink and paper.

I know that there might  be some eye-rolling over the very existence of this  book. Why would I need to learn how to be an adult, when I've already survived 20-something years already of life? Shouldn't that already make me an adult? I SURVIVED COLLEGE - that must make me an adult. I sadly realized, not that is not the case. I may have taken care of my own apartment, got a degree, drive a car, and gotten several jobs, but still not an adult. This book made me realize that there is still SO much I can do to get to reach my personal standards of being an adult.

Silly and quirky as it is, still worth a read.

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Final Comments

Length: At 259 pages, not too bad. But 468 is intense. 

Content: Some sections definitely more interesting than others, but depends on what you already know. The sections you do are an adult at = INSTANT ego boost 

Attention Grabbing: It couldn't hold my attention for too long, it felt like a chore after going through 20 steps at at time. This is better as a quick read on the bus or a lunchbreak. 

Price: Pretty steep at $15 out of Urban Outfitters.....but it is Urban Outfitters

Would recommend to college students to college graduates. Or if you're feeling generous, to someone you know that REALLY needs to learn how to take care of themselves, without you.

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Thanks for reading and leave comments and questions below and I'll be sure to answer! Have a good one and until next time!

San Francisco Getaway - Part 1

Hello Everyone!

It is the middle of July and I just got back from an amazing road trip to San Francisco for a mini getaway with two of dearest friends ever - Emily and Sarah! This post will be an overview of everything that happened on my getaway, along with HIGHLY recommended must-sees that have really made this trip amazing.

There is just so much to write about that I decided to split this trip into two blog posts.

Road Tripping Up -  (Total time: 7 hours with traffic)
 If you have never been on a road trip to San Francisco, then I would highly recommend it because it is so relaxing to just be on a long drive and to take in the California scenery. Going up, we took the I-5 North Freeway since it was a more direct route, thus taking less time. But be careful...once you hit Farmland, close ALL of the vents unless you want to sit miserably with the smell of cow in your car - the bad kind. 

We only hit about 1 rest stop for gas and a bathroom break after being loaded up with snacks and free 7-11 slurpees. And we still had PLENTY of snacks for the rest of the trip up =).

Be sure to also be careful of other drivers since the roads narrow from multiple lanes to two sometimes at night. There will be moments where the speed limit drops to about 35-40 since it looks like it is major foggy areas.

All in all, the drive was quite relaxing and if you don't get car sick or motion sick, then it is a great time to catch up on reading or playing your favorite mobile games.

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Legion of Honor   (Total time: 2.5 hrs)

Greeted by the Thinker at the entrance.

Ticket: $6 for College Students with valid ID + $11 for special exhibit = $17
Transportation: Muni Bus for $2 fare.
Location: 100 34th Ave, San Francisco, CA 94121

If you are a fan of art museums, then I HIGHLY recommend the Legion of Honor. It sits in the San Francisco Lincoln Park and has a beautiful view of the Golden Gate Bridge. 

The Legion of Honor normally contains pieces from different centuries and also home to some of Monet's most beautiful works. There was also two conserved and restored salon rooms from the 16th century that were absolutely breathtaking. Not only does the museum hold paintings, but also statues and artifacts from different time periods.  We were very lucky to have the opportunity to catch the Matisse exhibit on loan from the SFMOMA; the Intimate Impressionism Art from the National Gallery of Art; and the Masters of Fire: Copper Age in the Holy Land exhibit.

Famous Water Lillies by Monet

The museum is extremely extensive and had different works of art for everyone. The entire building is set up like an arc where you begin in the middle with statues from Rodin. The right arc is a progression towards the Renaissance to Monet. While if you go to the right from the center, you are going back in time to more religious art to the Copper Age. Then when you go downstairs, you will be able to visit the cafe and also the special exhibits. 

Sea Shores in the Impressionist Exhibit

My personal favorites - the Porcelain Works Exhibit, Monet, Matisse, and the Impressionist Art. It felt like such a treat to be able to see beautiful pieces of work I have only seen in books. But be WARNED it is a common place for pictures of wedding parties, quincineras, and other celebrations.

Picture out on the lawn of the Legion of Honor

Outside of the Academy

 California Academy of Sciences (Total time: 3 hrs)
Ticket: $29.95 for Students with Valid ID. Academy Members allowed to bring one guest in for free.
Transportation: Walking from the Legion of Honor, then Muni Bus 
Location: 55 Music Concourse Drive, San Francisco, CA 94118

One of my ABSOLUTE FAVORITE places to visit every time I come to San Francisco. It is a beautiful science museum located in the Golden Gate Park across from the De Young Museum. It houses a Rain Forest Dome, Planetarium, Aquarium, Native American Artifact wing, and an African Safari wing. The Academy also switches out special exhibits and is always adding more to it. The price for the academy is a little steep, but it is WELL worth it for half a day to a full day. There is just so much to see. And the cafeteria food is AMAZING and all organic if you have a chance to go in for a quick snack.

Walking inside the Rain Forest Dome.

We got there late, so we were only able to see the Rain Forest Dome, Aquarium, special Earthquake Simulator exhibit, and the Planetarium. The Rain Forest Dome is a slice of the Amazon rain forest including exotic free-flying butterflies and birds. Butterflies are allowed to float and land on you, but you are not allowed to touch or catch them. At the bottom of the dome is a large aquarium housing dozens of large and rare species of Amazon fish.  

The aquarium is quite extensive as well with a variety of species in freshwater and saltwater. This area also includes several interactive exhibits to help people learn more about the aquatic wildlife. Overall, everything is so beautiful and tranquil that you can't help but feel like a jellyfish floating around the aquarium.

Another amazing thing about the Academy is their planetarium where they do different shows at multiple times during the day. Today we were able to catch the "Dark Universe" show in a parabolic theater. Not going to lie, everything is just so comfortable, I fell asleep.... But the shows are amazing and informative! I just wish I can catch the shows narrated by Morgan Freeman, Whoopi Goldberg, or Tim Allen.

The gift shop is one of the most interesting ever! Everything is geared towards science and STEM pursuance. They had these cute wooden cut jewelry and I DEEPLY regret not getting this necklace. It IS just so Kim. I will own it eventually!

But we were still able to enjoy the academy and take in a world of science. I wish we had more time, but alas another trip for the future! Always beautiful, always amazing.

Inside the Rainforest Dome - Sarah, Emily, Kim

 Crossroads Trading Co. on Irving Street
Location: 630 Irving St, San Francisco,CA 94122 

Thank you SO much to my brother's girlfriend, Nora, for recommending this place! Super cute, super awesome, and super amazing! All of the clothes were of such high quality and so much variety! I forgot how much fun going to a thrift shop can be. My girlfriends and I left happy with our purchases. I left with a new vintage chic dress and gold scarf. If you have time to check out this hidden gem, please be sure to go!

La Boulange Bakery
Location: 500 Hayes St, San Francisco, CA 94122

Amazing pastries and hot drinks on a cold day in San Francisco and after a day of adventuring. One of the best fruit danishes I have ever had and was a sweet treat to my sweet-and-spicy chai latte.

Mosaic Stairs, between 15th Ave and 16th Ave in South San Francisco
Lam and Nora's place is situated in a quaint neighborhood of South San Francisco. There are flights of stairs that can help you go up the hill to the neighborhoods, but this is a special set of stairs. Each step has a piece of a mosaic that when you're standing at the bottom, you'll be able to see a masterpiece. This is one picture of one flight, but there is another flight of stairs after this one. As you go up the steps, you will have a more beautiful view of the city as you go up higher on the steps. So if you need a good workout, these stairs are great!

Mosaic Stairs

Pronto Pizza in Redwood City, CA
A special treat from my brother Don. Amazing free-range organic chicken. One of the best pizzas I've had up in Nor Cal. But be prepared to wait! They do take out so it was nice to have Don come up and visit us while we were staying at my brother's place. We got amazing cheese and veggie pizzas, focaccia bread, and 1 whole roasted free-range chicken. 

Tuesday Tips #1 - Preparing for the Convention Battlefield

Hello Everyone~

Long time no talk! Yesterday, Comic-Con released the first set of tips for convention-goers in preparation for the San Diego Comic-Con ( 29 days away!!!). I am SO happy to hear that so many of my friends attended / will be attending new conventions this year! And of course going to their tradition ones too.

This will be my 8th year going to Comic-Con and my 2nd year going to Anime Expo. My brothers and I have developed a lot of tips and a lot of advice for everyone when it comes to this stressful vacation adventure.

Every week, I'll release a set of tips that can help you prepare for your own convention (or Con) adventure to ensure the best convention experience possible for you!

• Shelter and Transportation - Know them!
  Whether it be at a hotel or at a friend's place or even in your car, make sure you have a place to stay. And your shelter shouldn't just include where you are going to sleep, it also must include how you will partake in your hygiene rituals. And how will you get to your designated shelter? Not magic (although that would be REALLY awesome!).  The great thing about most conventions is that they are located around centers of public transportation! Also check to see if you know anyone in the area who's willing to carpool or even let you crash their location. In the bask of excitement of going to a convention, it is super easy to overlook these two very important details. These two details should be the most important for you to finalize as soon as possible, as in right after you buy your tickets to your convention.
  
• Learn more about your battlefield
  Don't go into a battlefield (in this case, a convention) completely blind! That will cause you to waste a great amount of time and to feel extremely overwhelmed, regardless of how experienced you are. Every convention has its own culture, atmosphere, and pace. So the best way to learn more is to do your research about the Con. What I mean by research is to go BEYOND the convention website - reddit, blogs, insider news, facebook, tumblr, twitter, and etc. You will find information about events, vendors, outside venues, great eateries, and other useful tips to help your experience be better than you imagined. You probably paid a GOOD amount of money for this convention so the best you can do to say thank you to your wallet (or someone else's) is to make sure you get your money's worth by having an idea as to what you're getting into.
  
• Game-planning for the week and the days
  For almost ALL conventions, a schedule is released of the events that will be happening throughout the convention at specific timeslots. When people ask me what exactly is at Comic-con, Anime Expo, or even real-world professional conferences, it's more than just dressing up and getting freebies. It's a place to share ideas and to gain new experiences. Read up on EVERY event listed during your convention and start to make a list, or even better, start putting them onto a calendar / planner. I personally use Google Calendar so that I can input ALL of the workshops or panels that I am even SLIGHTLY interested in. Then start to prioritize which ones I want to attend. And Google Calendar makes it SUPER easy to share with my group of friends. This will help generate a gameplan for you to follow and eventually generate days filled with activities to keep you busy. And don't limit yourself to events JUST in the convention, look around the area to see if there is some awesome restaurant deals or exclusive events that only happen during the week of your convention! This is really where your research will be useful. You must prepare your attack thoroughly upon your convention.

• How much can I abuse my wallet?
  MONEY IS NOT LIMITLESS. No matter if you are going with a generous family member, or super splurging your paycheck. A wallet will cry either way. Pinpoint your EXACT budget and include every little thing POSSIBLE that you think you may even think of buying - convention tickets, hotel, gas, food, alcohol, exclusive items, gifts for co-workers, impulse activities, and etc. I've seen waaaay too many people overspend and blow their wallets over impulse buys, rage purchases (yes this is a thing), trips to the hotel poolside bar, and charming vendors. Start with having an idea of what you want to buy or what purpose would your purchase serve in your life after the convention. Even if you don't have an idea, you can still have an idea of what WOULD be cool to own. I set a base budget, and then an emergency budget. My base budget is a number that I am perfectly comfortable giving up - for me it's normally $200. Then the emergency budget is your emergency rations to tap into when you ABSOLUTELY NEED THAT ONE THING - my emergency rations is $50 more. You'll recognize that absolute item when you see it. The reason to set this budget is so that you have enough in your wallet to get you home and to resume normality. 

Next time will be tidbits on what you should pack for your big adventure! Since Anime Expo is RIGHT around the corner and Comic-Con is on the horizon, I'll also do a tidbit about Cosplay

Until Next Time ~

Kim Struggles - Fear and Anxiety

Hello everyone! 

To keep up with the momentum of posting, here's something that has been plaguing my mind for quite some time. For some reason I've had this feeling building up in my head and in my chest. I couldn't discern what it was, but I knew it was causing me to be restless and very anxious. I would oversleep constantly. Stare at the wall with a blank look. Try REALLY hard to find things to try and distract myself and then feel sad that I can't look more on reddit or buzzfeed. I had a mental block stopping me from productivity.

This restless feeling....it went from my head all the way down to my wrists and finger tips. It's painful not doing anything when you know your body wants to be active doing something.

Then sitting right here, I realized it was FEAR that was causing this mental block and then my anxiety and restlessness. A fear of what I wasn't sure...nor could I figure out the cause. Now that I'm on Spring Break from my last year of college, I had some time to think.

This fear is from my self-doubt about myself, my work, and my lifestyle.

Did I put enough effort into my school work? Was I a good enough team-player for my team? Am I making the right decisions for my health? Am I taking care of myself. Am I a reliable enough person for someone to trust? Am I holding true to my promises? What am I good at? Can I get a job after I graduate? If I try something, will I fail and then give up?

All these questions and others just kept replaying themselves through my head. This made it hard for me to focus or even think about positive things when trying to apply for jobs. And since I'm on break, I'm at my parents' home and my mom at work, it has been a while since I've felt this lonely (normally one of my roommates' are there to help me be distracted). I know I have friends back home, but it's strange for me to call friends out all of a sudden when I haven't spoken to them in so long. 

I made a call to someone and she helped remind me something - I'm doing the best I can and being positive can help turn a hopeless situation into a better one (not a winning one, but better). And that this fear is here because I keep hoping and wishing for something to happen. I need to DO Something.

The question I will ask myself everyday to help keep this fear away  - What am I doing today to help me become the woman I want to be? 

This post is already a step in the right direction, because it's helping me realize that this fear is here and it's not going to go away. I have to conquer it.

That's my current struggles for right now.

Look forward to the next post!